IT'S OVER!!!!

So last night - the most humbling thing ever happened to me....
I actually won the talent search! I can't believe it!!!
For those of you who have no clue as to what I was in....here is the link to the webpage....
http://www.fln.ca/talentsearch
Anyhow - it was completely shocking and completely humbling all at the same time. The other 3 of the final four were SO SO SO talented and I know that all of them have ENORMOUS futures!
So....what does this mean you ask?
Honestly? I don't know.....
Hah. I know that I am doing a radio interview on CHVN at 8:10am tomorrow...I know that I have to call avante records this week to figure out the plan....
And according to the website the things that happen are this.....
Prize Package includes:
3 song demo produced & recorded at Avante Records
Air play on CHVN
Potential Artist Development deal with Avante Records (I'm not too sure what this is....)
Live appearance at a Hear The Music event (Fall 2007)
Membership to Canadian Gospel Music Association www.cgmaonline.com
1st single (produced & recorded at Avante Records) will appear on national distributed compilation CD – Merge (2007 release)
CD library from yourmusiczone.com (got this! I have like 20 cds from them or so!)
Prize from Whyte Ridge Music
Gift Certificate to Grace Café (2207 Henderson Hwy)
Gift Basket from Dr. McFarlance Dentistry www.drmcfarlance.com
Anyhow - how bizarre is this? I feel like I am in a sort of a dream. It has been super fun and super scary and a lot of work - but man - super cool.
Anyhow - I just thought I'd say what happened, Honestly - I went in to audition for experience, and didn't think I'd make the top 20, didn't think I'd make the top 10, didn't think I'd make the top 4 and certainly didn't think I'd win. What a crazy couple of weeks!
See ya
Kerri (I don't really know why I signed it like a letter....oh well....)
Oh - there is something else I want to write about....my friend Khel (givin you a shout out!! Yeahhhhh!) anyhow - showed me this worship album called "Enter the worship circle" man - what a cool idea eh? It made me start to think about making some kind of a worship circle - (Khel and I were talking about that - Laura - we thought you'de be awesome too!!!) just going and playing and jamming at youth groups or camps or whatever all in a circle - all stripping down the music (NOT OUR CLOTHES!!! THAT TAKES A WHOLE NEW TWIST!!) to its simpleist form....and just making music....LOVE IT....LOVE IT...
anyhow - just a thought.....I'm out.

To sing....or not to sing.....

Lately I've been quite immersed into this whole music thing...
I'm in the top 4 of a crazy competition - that I have actually been really enjoying. It's made me realize how much I truly love to perform - and not just perform, but how much I LOVE to sing. Music has always been the thing in me that brings me closest to God.
The new thought is maybe I should be persuing this thing for real. Maybe I should actually record and go on a little tour and really enjoy this thing while I can.
The other day the 4 of us that are left in the competition had to go to Avante studio to meet with 4 different people. The first person helped us with vocal stuff, the second helped us with stage presence, the third helped us with our music aspirations and future goals, and the last one interviewed us. Now the last one was the one that scared me the most to be honest. Me and interviews don't exactly go hand in hand...
But I LOVED it...it really made me think about things that I hadn't thought about in a really long time and David's questions were really fun. A couple examples....
1. Who is someone in your life that was really influencial to the person that you are today?
2. Do you sing in the shower? And if so - is it passively?
3. If you could ask God a question, what would it be?
4. What is your favorite instrument?
5. What is something that no one would necessarily know about you, but that you would like them to know....

That last one was really tough to me....not the rest.....of course I sing in the shower - I really sing ALL THE TIME, and NO it is never passively - I'm ALWAYS on stage in the shower!
For the last one - I realized that something that I have felt INCREDIBLY strong about my whole life is that (and maybe as a Christian this is a normal feeling) but that I have this deep desire and passion to make a difference. I've tried to make a difference a million different ways and have given up or have been unsuccessful and I feel like maybe I can do that with music somehow. If God can show me how to write from my heart and be honest with the way that I feel and sing, that maybe that might be a possibility.
Being a musician is not a very easy living I'm sure and I know there are a lot of trials that would happen - but it has been my dream ever since I was a little kid karaokeing (Yes! I TOTALLY had my own machine in my room) to Maria Carey and MC hammer...those were the only 2 tapes I had!!! Well, my dream has remained the same although my music taste thankfully has not. I want to thank Marc Vandersluys and Chris Lacey though for actually teaching me the guitar which has opened up doors for me...I don't think I ever really thanked them. I love them.
Anyhow - That is my thought....it's a scary one and one that God would be in complete control of...not me.....that is a big and scary step for me....
so - anyhow - we'll see what happens...maybe nothing...
I'm out.

I will write more when I have time!!!!

Haha - well, I made it to the top 4! It's actually super suprising to me! I now need to come up with 3 songs for this next weekend. The prize if you win is really pretty sweet - but I honestly don't think I'll WIN the whole thing - but it has been a super cool experience!
Take care! (haha- only wrote this b/c after the show last night, 2 girls came up for my autograph!!! crazy - but I was so thrown off that I didn't know what to write and I wrote "Take Care" Who writes that!!!! SO LAME!!!! They are going to read that and be like "WHAT THE???"
Anyhow - I am off to bed. Besides the top 10 show last night - I was at a marriage retreat all weekend - which was SOOOO good! I am so glad we went!
Anyhow - bye

made it!

Hooray! I made the top 10 in the CHVN Talent search. Cool! So now - stress for most of the week to finding 2 songs for next saturday...
Cool - See ya - I'm hungry and tired.

oh yeah - one more thing....

oh yeah - haha
stupidly am auditioning for canadian idol on sunday with my friend laura!!
Haha
bye

my life in 7 sentences

short post....
made the top 20 in the Christian talent search through CHVN
perform tomorrow to try and make the top 10
still working on drawing
still suck
learning the djembe
love it
bye