Learning to Draw in a month.....

Hi all, it has been a while. That is because I am learning to draw in one month. I decided against Hertzing, as I decided that I wanted to do it right this time and take a reputable program. I am now attempting to be accepted to Red River college in their graphic design program.
I will apply by tuesday (the cut off date) and then they will send me their portfolio requirements. That is when I realize that I really don't know how to draw. I have been trying to draw for at least an hour a day - some days more than that, and come up with concepts....my main problem is that I have ideas in my head.....I just don't have the capacity to get them out of there.....
I really want this program....I want to do this. I am open for any advice anyone has about this....drawing and stuff....I'm hoping being a photographer will be beneficial - as I want to be more of a photographer/designer....with some illustration...not a illustrator/designer with some photography...
anyhow - that's a lot of babble....I don't mean to...but I'm excited and at that applying stage.....
but for now......I must draw.....

Pic of Kai and thoughts about creating......

I have been thinking lately about how I have this feeling deep inside of me that I was made to create. I don't think that this will be any kind of earth shattering of creating, but just to create. I have been really thinking about this lately. I seem to get so caught up in caring what people think, and caring about how I sound, and how I come across, that I have lost the beauty of creating.
I was at Jane, Kathryn, Kalyn and Merri-Lou's show tonight, and I really really enjoyed it. I realized that I don't often get to sit back and be proud of the fact that I created something. I find that I chicken out far before that.
Those of you who know me well, know that I start a MILLION projects, do all the hard work, and then quit while I'm a head, b/c I am really afraid to fail. I need to really suck it up and be ok with failing, but look at it like a learning experience. I LOVE music, I LOVE art. I need to get back my passion for it, and really remember why I started doing it in the first place.
I was thinking about how often it is so easy to be self concious about what we do, that it is easy to hold back when doing it. I was thinking (I thought of it while sending a TOTALLY nuerotic email to Jane) that it would be AMAZING to do a "pray and play" or something like that - I'm pretty bad with cool, interesting names - but something where a group of us got together on a regular basis and prayed, and did devotions and b/c we were really opening up with each other, we were loosing all those inhibitions, and were not as self concious with each other and just really able to be ourselves, then after prayer and study, we would just jam. We would just giver, and just create music, and be free.
Anyhow - let me know what you think....I'm interested.....it might be (as well) just another neurotic thought from me.....(or - haha - something I think of, and NEVER finish)
I'm out.

Did you know???

1. Pushing the kettle down, makes it boil faster.
2. Every day 20 banks are robbed. The average take is $2,500.
3. The most popular first name in the world is Muhammad
4. Tourists visiting Iceland should know that tipping at a restaurant is considered an insult
5. There are more plastic flamingos in the U.S, than real ones
6. More people use blue toothbrushes, than red ones
7. It was once against the law to slam your car door in a city in Switzerland
8. More money is spent on gardening than on any other hobby
9. The average person laughs 13 times a day
10.Men are 6 times more likely to be struck by lightning than women

I am.......The biggest Loser......

Well, we all know that show.....The biggest loser. There is a part of me that wishes that I could get on a show like that - where I have all the time in the world to get my ass worked into the ground and come out looking like somewhat of a supermodel. (I'm sure it would take more than that really....but still)
I then saw them advertise that they had "The biggest loser - workout video." Perfect - I thought, and rushed to the phone to try to find this video. I could not have been more humiliated in all of my life, then when I made those calls. No word of a lie, I must have phoned 12 - 15 places before I found (no doubt) the LAST copy of it in the city. 12 - 15 times of "You are looking for WHAT movie?" "The Biggest....what?" (Me:) "Loser" "The Biggest Loser workout, do you have it?" "Biggest Loser?" Yeah - it's a workout, and I'M the Biggest Loser.
I finally found it - and for only $12.59 Bob Harper promises to whip my butt into shape in just 6 short weeks.
Anyhow - lucky Brent, I made him workout with me, there was Low Impact Cardio, Sculpt and Shape, High Impact Cardio, and Boot Camp. May I say I have STILL been too nervous to try Boot camp. It scares me.
Anyhow, Brent and I were doing awesome. Till we got sick, and went from going for 6 straight days, and then haven't done it now for about 2 weeks....
soon again though - we will fight, we will conquor, and WE WILL BE the Biggest Losers.
If we aren't already.

Frusterated in Winnipeg.......

Car not going to work out.

Wading in Wait.....

Well, our car lease is up soon, and Brent and I have been trying to find the perfect car for our family....we have looked at everything....from the ford focus wagon (remember, we have a child and a dog, so we can't get a sedan) to the Kai sportage, to the Saturn Vue etc....our main concerns were the fact that we were going to upgrade to a bigger car, and up would go our gas price...Till a friend of ours (Ush) turned us onto a car that fit us not only size wise, but also fuel efficiency, and is also the kind of car that 10-15 years down the road - we will still think it is cool. All rusted and beat up - it will have even more character. The car is the Scion XB. It (to us) is a great mix of Brent's favorite car (which is the old volvo wagons) and mine (which is the old landrovers) and they beat our little mazda protege out of the water when it comes to fuel economy. Being that they aren't available in Canada yet, they are really hard to find....
We found one in Coquitlam, BC, at a VW dealership called Westminster VW. They have been great to try to make us getting this car at the price we can afford and also ship it out to us. We are still waiting to hear on all the financing stuff, should know at some point today - and then we'll know if the payments will work with our budget and stuff...basically though - anyone of you that knows me, knows that I am the furthest thing from being patient....I want things done right away - I can't handle things that aren't done...anyhow - we have been waiting and trying to make this happen since friday - and I'm a bit of a pessamist and feel like saying "just reject us already - then we can just go on with our lives" even though people at the shop are really optomistic...weird.
Anyhow - my brother lives within walking distance and is going to go down and check out the car and the dealership for me, but all seems well....so - this waiting is killing me, and I really hope this happens...if not - it's back to the drawing board....